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New song Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 05:05 pm
I just finished a remix for Black Lab's "Ecstasy"..well the first draft anyway. I basically took just his vocals and built my own song them. I think I like the way it turned out, don't ask me where the guitar parts came out of, I just came up with them at 3am and somehow they went with what was suppose to be an electronica/dance/industrial song. Oh well. These songs just take on a life of their own, I've surrendered control.

Check it out HERE

Tepid Dec. 4th, 2006 @ 05:12 am
I can't seem to stop writing... its kind of nice..

Tepid thoughts carress the haunted
Those unblessed will know their curse
Liquid lies fondle the truth
Bliss eludes the corrupted
Hunger lurks in the shadows behind your smile
Hands held out to catch the rain..lips sightly parted to taste mine
The rain embraces the ground only to become safe white noise
Our disguises run cold, fingers rough and challenged
You can conquer me with one look
Distractions bind my lips
Freezing metal and barbed wire become my only desire
A masochist brought to her knees in the chilly morning light
Cigarettes smell pretty when deluding an innocent breeze
Unfiltered rapture taunts the wise
Their sins undisguised to all but them
They burn like an ice cube melting into skin
Lust is for those who cannot taste
Salty wounds, clove shampoo and cinnamon tongue
I experience you like a childhood memory
Thrill me with your apathetic whispers
Touch me like mercury and placate me with your unwavering purity
Mount my hands to your walls and make an example of me...
Look, but do not touch..
Current Audio Orgasm: Delerium & Matthew Sweet: Daylight

Black Lab's Lonely Boy Remix Aug. 15th, 2006 @ 11:15 pm
I finally did my first version of Black Lab's "Lonely Boy". It is Paul's vocals with all new Miss Volatile instrumentation and production. Enjoy.

Lonely Boy Remix Miss Volatile Style

New song lyrics Aug. 11th, 2006 @ 06:15 pm
The perfect sin for my fingertips
A connection without obligation
4am and I can still see you
Face blue from the flickering light
Eyes shadowed in digitized grain
I can't see your flaws and you can't see mine
So I fall in love with a digital landmine

I'm madly in love with the idea of you
A lurid fantasy ..unspoken
If I strip you down
And see through your wired lies
Will you still be this divine?

Thoughts that will never be tasted
I dare you to tempt me without the mask
Would I even know your face
Woud you know mine?
Or would we pass each other by
Our breath mingling in the winter air
The vapor of what could have been
But never really existed

But I'm so madly in love
with the idea of you...
A lurid fantasy ..unspoken
If I strip you down
And see through your wired lies
Will you still be this divine?

A mirage traces your silouhette
Your voice cracks through my speakers
Your words haunt my dreams
But who the hell are you?
Are you just another part of my lurid fantasy
Or can you be touched?
Current Audio Orgasm: Vnv Nation: Carbon

Incredible Jul. 31st, 2006 @ 12:35 am
I actually finished it. If you want to hear my remix of Lennon, please go HERE
I basically took her vocals and built another song with my own instrumentation. Its the god damn producer in me I can't help it.
Other entries
» New song!

This is a rough of my new song. I did this in collaboration with Juan from Puracane. He laid down a foundation and I ran with it. I think it has some potential..anyway..listen.. enjoy... or dont :P

» Baby..did you forget to take your meds?
I've made an instrumental for the purpose of being used in commercials, tv and film. Check out Feeling 27 here. If anyone knows any indie filmmakers looking for music, pass it on..there will be more to come. This one is very moody..its lusting so hard for something it makes you cry..

I've changed my mind yet again. I found a music education program in Bellingham, WA that leads to certification. I would love to teach music for a living, but there are not many schools that offer such a thing. Futhermore, I keep realizing how much I miss it up there. There isn't much in the way of thunderstorms, but there are plenty of brooding clouds and slouching evergreens. Do I know for sure yet? Not really, but I didn't appreciate what I had when I lived there. In fact, living in Vegas has made me re-think every place I have left... I had no idea the privileges that I had growing up even in the bay area. This place shows you how ugly it can get.. the maggots on the rotting lifeform... the parasitic indigestion in the form of dust devils and dazzling lights... I had no idea how bad it could get. Being an "artist" is a lot of fun and a curse in a way.. I am always swarming with so many ideas. This means I am never quite satisfied, but I can always entertain myself. I think this explains who I am the most.. I'm always missing the mark.. lusting for something else.. brimming with yet more ideas that flicker on and fade off into the sunset within a day's time.

I want the precision of a violinist and the raw passion that can only come with grinding a guitar to your hips... I want my voice to bellow out everything that is inside my head.. the passion.. the rage.. the things I never got to say..the people I never got to say it to.. the empty space I feel when the sun peaks into my bedroom each morning. I want the writer to come back, because she is under the surface and follows me everywhere I go. She takes in every moment..the dialogue around her at a grocery store.. every bat of a cigarette or eyelash.. she sees stories all around her... Everyone is obsessed with the idea of being in love..but nobody knows what it is... it eludes us and taunts us. Maybe love is in the friendship that never ends... or being able to look past our aging faces and know that we don't want to live without the object of our affections.. but we can. I have no idea where I'm going with all of this. These are just random thoughts being strung together at 230am.

Back to my original point... when I lived in Bellingham before it just was not the right time. I had barely reached my 20's and I tried to make a connection that didn't exist. I didn't know what college I wanted to go to.. my friends were an hour away in Seattle.. I still wanted to go to clubs and barhop. I craved the night life that didn't exist up there. I've grown out of that stage now. I know who I am and what I want. I know I don't care about night life anymore and if I want to go to a concert.. Vancouver BC is only 50 miles away. Vancouver BC is my dream place to live... but I can't live there for obvious reasons.. mainly lack of citizenship. So why not get as close as I can? It is one of those things... you don't know what you have until you lose it. I regret encouraging my mom to sell her little cottage on the lake.. I miss that place more than I ever thought I would.

Anyway..here are some pictures that describe how I feel about the place..

I took these when I went to Bellingham last fall...

The way I see the world when I'm at my best... Collapse )
» Tool saga
It looks like Tool is also playing in Pheonix on a Saturday so that is do-able for me as well. However, the prices are still unreasonable on craigs list so far. I really can't afford to pay more than $100 per ticket so I made a couple of posts hoping that someone (who is an actual fan) tries to sell their tickets at the last minute because they cant go. This happens alot. However, due to the demand.. I don't think anyone is going to be taking my offer. At least I can say I tried and hope they will do a real tour after the release of their album.
» 3-day weekend
Why can't every weekend be a 3 day weekend? Even that one extra day just helps so much. Anyway, I started a new personal journal but I figured I should update this one more anyway. If you'd like to be added to my new personal journal, comment and I'll add you. I don't need drama from 3 years ago following me around anymore. Its long over with and needs to be forgotten, I just wish the person causing the drama would realize that and move on.

Anyway, I went to Lacuna Coil and Rob Zombie tonight. We had tickets in the private lounge, which was pretty nice. I didn't want to deal with the floor crowd. The crowds in Vegas are extremely rowdy and I figured if a bloody fist fight broke out in the middle of A Perfect Circle I wasn't going to risk being on the floor for Rob Zombie. I'm glad I wasn't because Jesse saw a lot of police cars and an ambulance after we left. I could tell something was going on because the security guards were literally sprinting across the place. I never quite got that.. in every concert I've been to there is always at least one person that overdoses on something, gets knocked out or basically goes crazy and has to be kicked out. Do some people just go to concerts to self destruct or what? Lacuna Coil was pretty entertaining and the female lead has an incredible voice. I've always thought so but it was even more impressive to hear her live. I could have done without the male singer grunting along with her. Rob Zombie was very entertaining, it just seemed like the whole thing was cut short. Apparently there was a 10pm curfew and they ended the show before 9:30 I think. It was cool to hear White Zombie stuff live after 10 years..brought back a lot of memories. The first real concert I went to on my own was White Zombie in 1995. Babes in Toyland opened up for them and I remember really enjoying myself. I remember screaming at the top of my lungs to Babes in Toyland and jumping up and down with White Zombie..ah too be young and naive again. I wish I still had that energy. Look at me.. I'm still only in my 20's and I'm already acting 70. I don't know what it is.. I just don't have the same passion I use to for shows. I still enjoy them, but calmly...I don't need to make an ass out of myself anymore I guess. You could tell the difference between the people that were there for the show and the people that were there to be seen. I think I've seen more denim mini skirts to hold me over for the next year.

In other news, I tried like hell to get tickets for Tool today but they sold out within seconds. For some reason, Jesse and I have no luck getting in. I hate ticketmaster with a passion. Plus I suspect that most of the tickets were sold anyway..Vegas is the kind of place you have to know someone to get into small shows like that. It was still really disappointing though. I love Tool live and I've only gotten to see them once. The sad part is the tickets were immediately selling on ebay for 7-800 a piece. They were selling 4 tickets for the upper balcony (which you can't see anything because tables are blocking your view) for $1800! I generally will not pay more than 200 bucks for 2 tickets, I don't care who it is. In any event, people are still buying them like crazy.. .they must really love Tool and/or be completely insane to be spending close to a grand on tickets. That's most of a paycheck for most people I know.

I hope I will start making music soon..I miss it. I just need to get out of this rut I'm in.
» Interesting
I've just spent the last ten minutes gigging uncontrollably. The net sure is a hilarious place sometimes...
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